how can i be okay

how can i be okay
when my joy is
under scrutiny

how can i be okay

when i am so scared

how can i be okay

when they are
erasing anyone
who wants to be real

when they have wormed into
my thoughts just to say
"you are unworthy of love"
"you are unworthy of life"
"you are sick and twisted"

their words twist like a knife
i am not okay
i will never be okay

my joy has been taken
and turned against me
because they can always tell