am i real?

my friends say i am real

my heart says i am real

i make myself real twice a day with two pills

but does that make me real?

what if am i just a hurt boy playing dress-up

even if i say "i am real" i feel like i may be lying

a real girl would say she's a girl

a real girl isn't still surprised when people get her pronouns right

a real girl doesn't freeze up while describing herself

a real girl doesn't see a man in the mirror

a real girl doesn't let herself be erased because "well, i guess i see where they're coming from"